Sad Sad Sea Horse

I don't know what it is. Could it be jealousy? No not that. Longing? No, not that either. It's more discontent of some sort. My life is so different now, and I"m at that point where the things I want are still far away from reach, and what I had is no longer mine. I just wish I didn't feel so lonely. Like I'm leaving behind people, but no one is reaching out for me. People judge me. They think that I'm fake, because I'm materialistic. They don't know me at all. Material goods are great, I love make up, I love clothes, yeah I can endorse in superficial things, but when it comes down to everything, I'm still human, I'm still real! I have real feelings, real dreams, goals, wants, needs. But I'm at that point where I rather splurge and invest in material goods, then people, because people always let me down. The only times make up lets me down is when they break me out or cause an allergic reaction, they never let me down, cause me heart ache, bring tears to my eyes, unless you count getting mascara into them... I guess it's pathetic and sad that I put my feelings into such material items, but they're always there.. no matter what, I'll have them, but I can't say the same for everyone in my life.

Whale of a Wednesday

Current Want:

is that not amazing looking?

-they're "push pop" cupcakes!

I adore this <3 

The Happenings

School:

Bored, Bored, Bored, Eat, Bored.

Home:

Sit, Eat, Sit, Clean, Sit, Eat, Blog.

On a Brighter Note

☮ I bought stuff online today :] from Lush <3  I was going to get the cheaper shipping, but then I realized it was only saving me 2 dollars & it'd take up to 15 days! Where as for 2 more dollars, I'd get it in 2 days, so..  basically I said "fck that" & paid 8 bucks for shipping! That's more then some of the items I got... Sadly, I've already forgotten what I purchased,  But I'll make a blog or vlog when I receive it in the mail (;

☮ While cleaning my room today, I found a whole 100 dollars! :] I was quite thrilled as you can imagine finding money you did not know you had is definitely one of the best feelings in the world <3 However it does not cease to amaze me how I could lose 100 dollars and not even realize it until now! I need better money organization, or organization in general; but oh wells! more money for me to shop with (;

Things I Need To Do

1. Pack for San Francisco! Leaving Sunday :O

2. Do my AP Statistics homework. BLEURGH ):

 (me and my friend are exchanging so I can't let her down :P)

3. Go shopping in general. (;

4. Find a way to hang or store scarves! :D

5. Start being more strict on my diet plans! )):

★ Shannon! ☮